Friday, September 28, 2012
Thursday, September 27, 2012
College
This college process is so darn stressful.
I'm falling back in school work.
I'm losing time management
I took a week off from being captain of the Cross Country Team.
Darn why does my life feel so out of place?
I'm falling back in school work.
I'm losing time management
I took a week off from being captain of the Cross Country Team.
Darn why does my life feel so out of place?
Friday, September 21, 2012
Summer to Now
Summer transitioning to school has been such a change.
This year in general has been one heck of a ride.
Beginning of summer began as a time jumping straight into the Philippines mission training.
I went to Philippines, had the experience of my lifetime.
With a month left after coming back, i spent most of my time with Susie and trying to deal with my teeth situation.
before i knew it, school started, and my mom had already left for Taiwan for relative issues.
For the past few weeks, I've been feeling very alone, stressed, and useless.
I am the Cross Country Team Captain, I'm taking a good course load, College applications are stressing me out.
I feel like time is dragging along. No, its actually, me dragging along trying to catch up with time.
Time is like a treadmill or an never ending escalator. We are just constantly running or climbing up the stairs. If we slack we stay in the same place. If we keep going, we just stepping on what life has to offer us.
I keep thinking, Life is coming at me too fast. Why can't i slow it all down and get everything together.
School work has been stressing me out.
College applications and Scholarship programs are stressing me out.
Leading well as a Team Captain is stressing me out.
Being all alone stresses me out.
I've been so disorganized. I didnt have any school supplies. I havent been eating well. I leave the house driving the car to school everyday, and after practice come home by 6pm. After showering and cooking myself some food, it becomes 8pm. At 8 pm, its hard to fulfill all the course hw. Especially AP Gov. Last night i did a 54 page outline. With a few books due monday and tuesday of next week. Some of these classes are stretching me out to the limit.
Time is progressing, its either i catch up, or fall behind and get trampled.
I'm stressed again. I feel so useless. I havent even tried joining any clubs this year yet. This is very depressing. My head is spinning. Its so annoying to keep running this race. Its like a marathon. It never ends until we die. God help me. Funny thing is, It only gets harder from here on in.
This year in general has been one heck of a ride.
Beginning of summer began as a time jumping straight into the Philippines mission training.
I went to Philippines, had the experience of my lifetime.
With a month left after coming back, i spent most of my time with Susie and trying to deal with my teeth situation.
before i knew it, school started, and my mom had already left for Taiwan for relative issues.
For the past few weeks, I've been feeling very alone, stressed, and useless.
I am the Cross Country Team Captain, I'm taking a good course load, College applications are stressing me out.
I feel like time is dragging along. No, its actually, me dragging along trying to catch up with time.
Time is like a treadmill or an never ending escalator. We are just constantly running or climbing up the stairs. If we slack we stay in the same place. If we keep going, we just stepping on what life has to offer us.
I keep thinking, Life is coming at me too fast. Why can't i slow it all down and get everything together.
School work has been stressing me out.
College applications and Scholarship programs are stressing me out.
Leading well as a Team Captain is stressing me out.
Being all alone stresses me out.
I've been so disorganized. I didnt have any school supplies. I havent been eating well. I leave the house driving the car to school everyday, and after practice come home by 6pm. After showering and cooking myself some food, it becomes 8pm. At 8 pm, its hard to fulfill all the course hw. Especially AP Gov. Last night i did a 54 page outline. With a few books due monday and tuesday of next week. Some of these classes are stretching me out to the limit.
Time is progressing, its either i catch up, or fall behind and get trampled.
I'm stressed again. I feel so useless. I havent even tried joining any clubs this year yet. This is very depressing. My head is spinning. Its so annoying to keep running this race. Its like a marathon. It never ends until we die. God help me. Funny thing is, It only gets harder from here on in.
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