The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Wow.

I just watched this movie and I want to read this book. I would totally recommend it to anyone including my family.

I can relate, and I believe anyone can.

This is my favorite book and movie.

“To tell you the truth, I've just been avoiding everything.” 
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

“But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things.” 
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

“I'm just thinking too fast-- much too fast.” 
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

“Dear friend,
I feel great! I really mean it. I have to remember his for the next time I'm having a terrible week. Have you wer done that? You feel really bad, and then it goes away, and you don't know why. I try to remind myself when I feel great like this that there will be another terrible week coming someday, so I should store up as many great details as I can, so during the next terrible week, I can remember those details and believe that I'll feel great again. It doesn't work a lot, but I think it's very important to try. ” 
― Stephen Chbosky

“Love pats are soft punches of encouragement that are admistered on the knee, shoulder, and arm.” 
― Stephen Chbosky

“For me personally, as much as I don't understand my mom and dad and as much as I feel sorry for them sometimes, I can't help but love them very much.” 
― Stephen Chbosky

“I guess when you see somebody in the hallway or on the field or something, it's nice to know that they are a real person.” 
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

“I couldn't believe Sam actually got me a present because i honestly thought the "I love you" was it.” 
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Rest

I need some true rest.

Hurricane Sandy provided a week off from reality. For most people, work had been canceled, school closed, and a break was given. 

However, school continually lingers over my head, supplements plague my mind, weather holds continual hindrances (snowstorm), sleep and escape sounds more pleasant. Everyone was affected by Hurricane Sandy, almost everyone was sent into disarray. I scoured for Wifi and electricity for the past week. 

I ended up traveling to my grandparents house, then sleeping in my parents church, then sister's fiance's house then coming to Brooklyn in my brothers apartment. I have been wearing the outfit for numerous days attempting to complete my task of finishing school work and supplements, but work falls short when I lose motivation to continue.

I need some rest, apart from stress. Some serenity, peace of mind. A calming dream. 

I just want to finish everything and get back on track with life. I'm sure falling way behind. 

I need some rest, rest only God can provide. God relieve my stress, give me motivation, give me a prayer life, help your child. I'm weak, I need your strength to sustain me. I fall short and I know you are gracious. I am losing sight of you. 

Prayer Request: 

I need a prayer life, a constant one. 

Apathy

Lemme just say,
Life is getting to me.
i either have to snap out of it soon,
or all hell breaks loose.
I feel apathy coming back to me.
It's not a pleasant feeling.
Soon enough, i'll be numb again and it'll be hard to pull me back to life again.
I need a way out.

I miss my Grandma.

College

This college process is so darn stressful.
I'm falling back in school work.
I'm losing time management
I took a week off from being captain of the Cross Country Team.
Darn why does my life feel so out of place?

Summer to Now

Summer transitioning to school has been such a change.
This year in general has been one heck of a ride.
Beginning of summer began as a time jumping straight into the Philippines mission training.
I went to Philippines, had the experience of my lifetime.
With a month left after coming back, i spent most of my time with Susie and trying to deal with my teeth situation.
before i knew it, school started, and my mom had already left for Taiwan for relative issues.
For the past few weeks, I've been feeling very alone, stressed, and useless.
I am the Cross Country Team Captain, I'm taking a good course load, College applications are stressing me out.
I feel like time is dragging along. No, its actually, me dragging along trying to catch up with time.
Time is like a treadmill or an never ending escalator. We are just constantly running or climbing up the stairs. If we slack we stay in the same place. If we keep going, we just stepping on what life has to offer us.
I keep thinking, Life is coming at me too fast. Why can't i slow it all down and get everything together.
School work has been stressing me out.
College applications and Scholarship programs are stressing me out.
Leading well as a Team Captain is stressing me out.
Being all alone stresses me out.

I've been so disorganized. I didnt have any school supplies. I havent been eating well. I leave the house driving the car to school everyday, and after practice come home by 6pm. After showering and cooking myself some food, it becomes 8pm. At 8 pm, its hard to fulfill all the course hw. Especially AP Gov. Last night i did a 54 page outline. With a few books due monday and tuesday of next week. Some of these classes are stretching me out to the limit.
Time is progressing, its either i catch up, or fall behind and get trampled.

I'm stressed again. I feel so useless. I havent even tried joining any clubs this year yet. This is very depressing. My head is spinning. Its so annoying to keep running this race. Its like a marathon. It never ends until we die. God help me. Funny thing is, It only gets harder from here on in.

Dyed Hair

I dyed my hair Auburn today.

Venue for today:
- Woke up at 6 am
- took 7am bus to Susie's house
- Got there around 8:30
- ate at dunkin donuts for breakfast
- went to fresh meadow theaters to watch Brave 9:55 showing
- took q17 to walgreens
- picked up photos for joan
- walked to burgerking
- met up with nancy, and walked to her friend's house
- at the house, she put red dye in my hair cause it was already dark, so red should just make it auburn
- i left the dye in for 40 minutes
- susie was bored, i washed out the dye
- outside, my hair was violet red.... it wasnt auburn
- went to buy two roast porks over rice
- ate, talked, had fun
- tickle wars!
- we walked to duane reade
- bought a birthday card for Ruth Lee, Her birthday is July 3rd
- wrote on the card
- walked to quickly, Ruth met susie for the first time. Ruth's mom was there too
- talked till 420
- went to burgerking for bathroom (smelled terrible)...
- took the bus to Susie's house
- said hi to her brother
- walked to her church
- helped her choose out songs for service
- relaxed till 5:48
- took the q27 to bell blvd.
- waited for the 6:12 bus
- sweating red from my head
- got to Glen Cove around 7:15
- walked home. on the way saw a couple of friends
- got home.

It was a very eventful day :) My hair is a bit too bright for my taste, but all is well :)

I really love Select Chorale

Select.....seriously?!?!? Did you guys really do that today?!?!? All I can say is wow! I've watched it twice already!! Im not going to get all sentimental now, I'll save that for tomorrow, but you guys are the magic that is GCHS Select Chorale! Where would we be without you! If you haven't seen the video...you have to! It is PERFECT! My favorite part (other than Sh#t Norris says) were all of the smiles at the end! This group is IRREPLACEABLE! Im at a loss for words! We'll talk tomorrow! We'll set up a viewing party!Unlike

• • Gchs Select Chorale Ali, all I can say is I love you! You my dear are the top! Thank you for putting so much into this project. Thank you to the officers (Angie, Paulie, Vicki) for all of your help with this as well. I will cherish this for the rest of my life!

     

     

     

     

    I really love Edward Preston Norris III and the whole Select Chorale. Its probably the only class i look forward to going to at the start of everyday. I love how it was so perfectly placed at the last period of the day. 

    This whole entire year in Select Chorale has been a blast. We did unfathomable things. Our very first performance was the most important in ACDA and we nailed it perfectly. First performance and we were already traveling 8 hours up to Rochester. That feel like just yesterday when i was bonding with my bros inside our hotel room bumping to some music. Going to other people's rooms and having pillow fights. Being so real and bonding to real people. When time came to need to sing, we would iron our white shirts and black tie. We would put on our slacks, tuck in our white shirts. Button each button. Put on our black tie and tighten it. Wear some dress socks. Put on our dress shoes. And finally place on our most prestigious outfit: Our Maroon Blazer that states our origin and where we represent. As we button the top button only. We wear our outfits with pride. As Norris says, The performance begins as soon as the audience sees the first person walk out on to the riser. We stand with pride, heads tall and chin up. With determination we complete our goal. Another cool thing about us is that, when we are singing, we are able to loosen up too. We follow our leader and we enjoy every downbeat of his baton.

     After that the Winter Concert rolled around. And some how we blew the roof off of that too. 

    Its amazing to see how much 57 young adults can do when they are lead by a great leader and all have the same focus to sing skillfully and strive for perfection. I have never seen a group like this. Three standing ovations. I will ever remember that moment in which we placed our heads down to conclude the piece Circle of Life. When we lifted our heads, the crowd had already exploded out of their seats and applauded with the sound of a rushing waterfall. Our heads were in amazement. That became another moment where we finally realize, "This is what i am a part of. The Select Chorale. There is none else like us. This is what makes us special and stand out" From the start of the performance to the end. With determination and nervousness, we succeeded with a perfect performance. "perfect"( a word Norris seldom uses) Used it to complement that performance.

    While i was looking at the gift the Chorale made for Norris this year. I could not but have a grin on my face for the whole entire thing. Except for the occasional times i popped up and how much i hate my pronunciation of words. (which i love that i get to forget about that in Chorale) In Chorale, it is a judging free zone. It is a family setting no one can comprehend unless they were a part of us. 

    I can't believe i only have 1 year left. I can guarantee that during that spring concert next year, i will  ball my eyes out. I will miss this group so much. 

    back to the topic of how our level just keeps rising. After the Winter Concert, one thing i love dearly is the nostalgic times we have right after every performance. I have never had a teacher that sits us all down and listens to our input. We always have students crying out of happiness and in awe. I myself have been brought to tears many a times. Having Secret Santa in a school setting. I have never heard of it. 

    Oh yeah prior to the Winter Concert, (this just shows the kindness of our group) We went to an HPS concert. To support funds of a disease that causes the person to die at approximately the age of 30 due to their lung capacity. Though our part was small in that concert, we played our role with sincere hearts. I cant stress that enough. Having such a professional group that conveys genuine emotion while singing. Even when i sing for praise on a sunday morning in church, i feel that our select Chorale performances are so genuine. 

    We even went to a catholic funeral mass to sing for a district member that passed away. We sang Channel of your Peace. Seeing people cry out of genuine concern, and emotion. It touches my heart so much. 

     Event after event with Carnegie Hall, Nyssma Majors, Citifield. Placing on our blazers and singing our hearts out.

    I have to lead on to this final event. The Spring Concert. Everything we done all year led to that very moment. With the song repertoire of The Ground, Swingle, Goodnight, Amor, Witness and Road Home. The emotional Ambiance filled the room. I have never experienced such a heart felt performance. I forgot to mention. Prior to every performance we have, we have a little thing we do in the practice room. Norris somehow made everyone cry. I'm not even a a senior graduating and he made me cry.  As soon as he read the third verse of Road Home. My heart just dropped and tears filled my eyes. Rise Up follow me, come away is the road

    THE ROAD HOME
    Tell me, where is the road
    I can call my own,
    That I left, that I lost
    So long ago?
    All these years I have wandered,
    Oh when will I know
    There’s a way, there’s a road
    That will lead me home?
    
    After wind, after rain,
    When the dark is done,
    As I wake from a dream
    In the gold of day,
    Through the air there’s a calling
    From far away,
    There’s a voice I can hear
    That will lead me home.
    
    Rise up, follow me,
    Come away, is the call,
    With the love in your heart
    As the only song;
    There is no such beauty
    As where you belong;
    Rise up, follow me,
    I will lead you home.
    

    This was the song to say good bye to the seniors. Just reading the third verse in the chorus room made everyone cry. Especially cause he said "I Love You" in such a heart felt way. 

    Back to the topic of the Concert. All the things you are by Swingle was our Vocal Jazz piece. It was amazing. Having an 8 part scat aint easy. In difficulty level, it is a Nyssma level 10. For those who know what that means.

    GOOD NIGHT DEAR HEART. OH MY GOODNESS.. For this piece, the Chorale all held hands with one another. This song was commemorated to all those who had lost family members or loved ones. It was dedicated to a faculty member that passed away. In this song, all of us went to that special place in our hearts where we thought of our loved ones. I almost teared at the thought of my Grandmother possibly passing away soon due to Stomach Cancer. I sang that song for her. We saw the audience respond in tears. As we held hands. We tightened our body with every crescendo and loosened with every decrescendo. The energy was like lightning moving across the risers. 

    Amor de mi Alma. I dont know what words i have for this song. This was possibly one of my favorite. My heart broke in this one. This is a love song. While Norris was conducting, he was choking up. He was so close to tears. As soon as he had done so, my eyes let a waterfall of tears fall. Trying to maintain composure, i didnt wipe away my tears. i let them freely fall from my cheeks. Norris saying he loves us while conducting was something i couldnt handle. Translating the words from spanish to english, it would say i was born to love you and only you. i would give my last breath up for you. The concert was so emotional. 

    The next song was Witness, Whoa weee.. This song was so powerful. hehe cause it was biblical, my mother loved it. She recorded it and placed it on youtube. After Amor, this song just closed it out. Everyone just gave it their all. The very last Chord struck at the inner parts of the heart. It just reverberates around the whole room as you see Norris's  hands shake with power. Another Standing ovation occurred. It was a nice gesture. 

    To close the concert, as to close in tear drops, the last song was The Road Home. The lyrics are above. For this piece, all the seniors gathered in the first two rows of the risers. The underclassmen stood on the top two rows. This song began. I doubt any senior could finish the song. The words became tears. My section leader Paul Ferrante was already crying before the song began. In awe of how much everyone loves this group, this family. I am so honored to be a part of something like this. Towards the end of the song, the seniors wrapped their arms around each other. As the last note of the piece ended, a giant group hug occurred right on stage. I could see tears of happiness in Norris's eyes. I am so honored. 

    Tomorrow is the last day of the year. I can't believe i am a senior next year. I will give it my all and nothing less. No regrets. Leave everything on the stage. 

A Romantic Pursuit of God

http://www.revelife.com/763510660/a-romantic-pursuit-of-god/?cuttag=true#cuttaganchor

I need some of this

I believe I am speaking to a number of godly people who love Jesus with all their heart and who are at a point of deep despair.
What is the way to victory?
1. Dive into God's Word. Lay hold of your special promise, take it into the secret prayer closet, and hold God to it. I present my favorite promises to God whenever I cry out to Him:

• "What man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone? Or if he ask a fish, will he give him a serpent? If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?" (Matthew 7:9-11).

Ask the Lord for good things for He is waiting to give them to you. Ask Him to set you free, to take away all your shame, to remove all the stain of sin. He longs to do it for you.

• "Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us, unto him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus throughout all ages, world without end. Amen" (Ephesians 3:20-21).

Take this promise to God every day, saying, "Father, You said You would do well above everything I ask so today I'm asking You to over-answer my prayer." God is pleased by such faith!
2. Trust the Holy Spirit. The Father has sent His Spirit to reside in your heart but you must acknowledge that He is within you to answer. God doesn't have to send an angel to speak to you; He has already put His resources within you — the Holy Spirit Himself.
Say to Him, "Holy Spirit, You know the way out of this mess. I don't. It's completely beyond me. So I'm resigning right now and I give direction of my life to You. I know that what I'm going through is not uncommon to believers and I am going to hold the Lord to His great and precious promises. And then I will trust You to do the rest because You know the very mind of God!"
Dearly beloved, if you make this simple confession, you will know times of refreshing from the Lord. Even when you are ready to give up, He remains faithful to deliver you.

Dream

I had a dream last night :O

When i have dreams, they dont usually include specific people, but somehow this one did. i remember clearly being in church. Kenny, Aaron, myself, David Jin, maybe daniel. It was about the reunion of New Wave Band. I dont remember Easter being in my dream.
I remember sitting on the drum set, and David Jin asking me, "what the heck are you doing?"
I remember saying "i want to learn how to play drums"
at this moment, the new wave band knew that we were disbanded.
Kenny came to me and we talked, we somehow agreed to let him play the guitar and i play drums for a while.
I dont remember what aaron was doing in the dream.
I should've typed this earlier, it was about the reuniting of New Wave Band. I guess i miss playing with them. Interesting dream..

Sat....

Just my luck... My printer does not have ink to print my admission's ticket...
thank God, i have some reliable friends. Thanks a bunch Rachel. Though i know you wont read this.
God I pray for a good night's sleep, hopefully a good breakfast, and a sound mind. I pray my mind will stay focused, and fresh. This is just a stepping stone to my future.

What are words?

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

pg 145

"help me to remember that no human can ever take your place in my life. You are my strength, my hope, my joy, and my ultimate reward. Bring me back to reality, God; "give me an undivided heart" (Psalm 86:11)

I'm Awesome!

I'M AWESOME!!! :)

Yeah you

Hey Beautiful :)

Yeah you. The one reading my blog :P

*smiles*

Hehe this can be considered a waste of a blog post, but its all good :P

Hi, Bye ^^

 

Easter Sunday. In Christ Alone.

Thoughts going through my head before i sleep on Resurrection Sunday. Need to keep my focus on God.

Good Friday

three days until the anniversary of his resurrection. Not easter sunday, its called Resurrection Sunday. Conquering death. The very reason we believe. I do not believe in a dead god. I believe in the living, all powerful, ever working God. The God who lives inside of me. Who guides my every step. The one that is by my side when I'm blind to him.
I believe in the one that died and paid the price for my past, present and future sins so that i may have life and enjoy it abundantly. I live and serve an all-mighty God for whom i should be bold for. Day to day, i will serve the God who provides, the God who allows me to breath. The one i fear, the one i love. My father in heaven and hallowed be his name.

GAHH

GAHHH IM TIRED :( this week before spring break is skinning me to the bones...

:D

Laughing is so much fun ^^

School

BUSY LIFE HAS COME!

It will hectic life from the past week to June.
Last week, monday wasn't that bad. Just working out, and tennis after.
Tuesday 3-20-12: Sat Prep Class begins. So one full day of school, then drivers ed, then tennis, and shower, and then coming back to school at 7pm -930 pm. So it was a full day from waking up at 5:50 am to coming home by 10pm.
Wednesday: also similar. It was a full day of school, then acapella singing, talent show try-outs, working out, tennis, shower, and wrestling dinner at 7pm to 930 pm too. Boy that was some good food :)
Thursday was extremely long: woke up for drivers ed. Woke up at 515, and went driving at 545. Full day of school. worked out, tennis, shower, and Sat prep again from 7-930pm.
Friday: Boy it concluded the week days. So full day of school, fell asleep in many classes. worked out, almost pulled something, ripped my boxers doing squats. Giant rip btw.. i threw those out. Then tennis ending at 515. Went home to shower. Drove back out at 6 for District games. Brought a 24 pack of water and keeblers soft cookies :) 15 deca points in one day ^^
Saturday: Woke up at 8:15, played tennis from 9-1030. got ralphs, walked around king kullens, got home, watched the tale of desperaux on netflix, ate a little bit of food, passed out on my bed till god knows how late. Woke up a bit at 430pm. Passed out again after. woke up later. And started doing work. First finished drivers ed hw. On Apush hw now. Gonna do SAT hw tomorrow. Write essays tomorrow.

So that was last week. So the coming weeks are similar without the wednesday and friday going back to school late.
After spring break, there will be like 2 weeks before the AP exams.. Stressing out real soon because i need to relearn all course material for each AP class. SAT Exam in may is coming up too during the AP season.
Due to so much high school course work, i have to use Saturdays as all my work day inorder to go to church on sundays. If i cant finish my work on saturday.. Theres a slim chance of being able to go to church on Sunday.
Im just concerned for my readiness for Philippines. I have to be ready for it.. Maybe it's just bad timing for training in my Junior Year. I have been reading the bible regularly glad to say. Encouragement from a good* friend and accountability goes a long way.

After this busy season as i call it. And the easy finals and June SAT. Summer will arrive.

2012 is going decent so far. Its getting better every day though :) Time to keep up this Nerd Status :)

:)

Life is being pretty good to me now :) even though school is still stressful haha

Thursday!

Thursday! February 23, 2012! One of the Best days of my life.

Wrestling... After tomorrow, its gonna feel like a part of my life has ended. This year, wrestling has been the one thing i've been most passionate about. The passion i had for it rose above my academics, church life, and other clubs. Instead of going to Science Olympiad this year on February 4th, i decided to go to my Qualifiers tournament, in which i placed and became All Conference.

My junior wrestling season began middle of November 2011 or the 14th of November. However in actuality, it began over the summer when i went to a few inter-murals in school. For the last 4 months of my life, wrestling has been the toughest, and one of the greatest experiences of my life. It became such a great part of my life that i talk about it very frequently. It is the only sport where you earn your spot, you earn your fame, you bleed, sweat, and cry to become what you are. In order to become All conference, you must work for it and beat someone good. You make a name for yourself.

When i say bleed, sweat and cry, I'm not joking nor exaggerating. At the moment, i have a black eye, i have bruised knees, cuts all over my hands, jammed fingers, injured shoulder, and a mildly limping food. When i say sweat, i mean drenched in sweat, so when you take off your shirt, you can squeeze a bottle of water. It'll look like you just took a bath and just walked out. When i say cry, i mean being disappointed at yourself for not doing better and balling your eyes after loosing a match, you clearly would've won. You leave the room and you sit by yourself and plotting how to get better or what you did wrong.

What i found from wrestling: It must be one of the greatest sports ever known. Especially in a team setting. As i imagine it. From the first day wrestling started in November 14th of 2011, there were about 40-50 kids. From freshman to seniors, all in the same room. After the first few weeks, the numbers decreased to about 38 or so. It was necessary pruning for the one's who cannot persevere, and don't know how to make a commitment. Over the course of the season only a few more drop out. But everyday within that back gym, the ghetto wrestling room behind the curtain, we ran, stank up the place, and we worked with sweat dripping down our faces. We suck weight.

After a while, the team that stays, really becomes a team, a family full of unity. If you ever get the chance to spend 1/3 of the year sweating, bleeding, and working with another person, you are bound to become a family. A wrestling team is definitely a family in my eyes.

So let move on, as the season progresses, the 15 weight classes for varsity are filled. For me, i wrestled everyone on the team that was 145, or 152, or 160 that wanted to become the 152lb weight class varsity wrestler. I made that weight class. The other wrestlers of different weights wrestled for their spot on varsity. So when all is set, there are 15 varsity wrestlers, and the others go on Junior Varsity. (lemme define varsity and junior varsity. Varsity is the higher level more experienced wrestlers, and Junior Varsity is for the less experienced wrestlers)

Dual meets: Now this is my coach's favorite part of wrestling. (Coach Chris Macdonald) "It is our fifteen guys against their fifteen. Its a battle. When one teammate loses, the next wrestler makes up for his slack. We have each-others back. Go Get em" We wrestled for our team, for our family. When one person looses, we make sure the next guy gives it his all. Its a fight for 6 straight minutes. we say "Go Six or Get Six" which means you either wrestle for 6 minutes with all you got, whether you win or lose, or you pin the other opponent and get 6 points for our team. I love the warm ups when we run around the circle and after we finish our warm-up, we gather in the center on our bellies, and after the captain says something, we yell the same thing on 3. And we have our game face on to win. With our family, we became Dual Meet Conference Champions. Each match made a difference. It was up to the individual to pull out with a win. P.S i forgot to mention. Before every match, we can rely on our teammates to be on weight for that day. For me i could mean cutting my weight down from 160 down to 152, within a week by eating less. Wrestlers in a team suffer hunger together.

Qualifiers: I've stated this term already, but i'm pretty sure none of the viewers know what that is. Its one of the most important tournaments of the year. All other holiday tournaments and other school tournaments are nothing. The qualifiers is a place you have to prove yourself of worth. You have to place 1-4th place in order to become All Conference as an individual. Your seat in the tournament determines your worth or quality as a wrestler throughout the year and it also determines, what you are expected to place. Your seat also makes sure the two best wrestlers dont face off in the first match. So as i have said, i am all conference. And after you make all conference, you get to go to the Counties to attempt to become All county. Which means you wrestle the best wrestlers of Nassau County. If you win first in the counties, you get a chance to wrestle in the states and so on.

County: This is probably one of the most difficult tournaments a high school wrestler will get to unless they are extremely gifted and is a prodigy. In order to become All County, you must place 1-6th in this tournament. Within this bracket, there is 26 wrestlers within each weight class. And this event is tomorrow. If i win 1-6, i become All County. If i lose, this will be my last day of wrestling till next year.

I gotta admit, all the effort i placed into this sport has really been paying off excusing my injuries. Its really a sport where you reap what you sow. You gain as much as you try. Its a reflection of one of my favorite quotes. "Try a little harder to be a little better" Gorden B. Hinckley. Its a quote i think about when i practice and put my sweat and tears into something i love. And finding a passion in wrestling and the family setting really makes me come alive. "Don't ask what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who are alive" Howard Thurman. It is a quote i've been living by.

After tomorrow, the county tournament, whether i become all county or not, i'm surely going to miss wrestling though i will be relieved the four months of work is over. Next year is definitely going to be a year I become the best at Wrestling in my weight class. I plan on working till I become All County and possibly continue on. I will finally be able to eat again. After suffering and not eating before the day of matches just to make weight, i'm relieved to finally be able to eat again.

But until next year, peace out wrestling. You are a great part of my life. Next year quite possibly be my last year wrestling, so i plan on doing all i can while i can. Wrestling has been molding me the last few months and i really appreciate the experience. One more day to give every last drop of sweat and work i have left on the mat tomorrow. Despite my disadvantage in the Seating Bracket. I'll go out there and wrestle with what i've got.

Till next year. -Most Outstanding Wrestler Jerry Ho-

Sunday Morning 1-29-12

It gets awfully lonely being home alone.
January is almost over.
1/12ths of the year gone already.
Second semester of school is starting.
Wrestling is almost over, pretty ambivalent about that. I love wrestling and how far we came in the competition this year. I need it to end to get back on track with school work. Though it was a very great stress reliever and a great way to stay in shape. I lost three pounds of sweat on friday because i was 2.8 pounds overweight for the 152 +2 weight class for playoffs. I just wish i never injured my shoulder, which is a rotation cuff injury. My leg injuries are injuries i can deal with.
I still need some resolutions for this year.
-Get back on track for school, Junior year can have better grades if i tried a bit harder.
-Definitely try to win the Qualifiers so i can verse better kids in all of Nassau County before Wrestling ends.
-Begin SAT studying,
-Begin Taking College Seriously and stop procrastinating with it.
-Clean my room,
-Be productive
-Stop being a baby and be bold
-Progress farther in guitar, because i'm stagnant
-Stop wishing and just do.
-Begin Awake21 on my own time. Really try to fast and complete the 21 days.
-Become what you are made to be.

Big Week

Theres a big week ahead of me. Very stressful too :(
I recently got sick on thursday night 1-19-12. I got home at 1am.
I missed school the next day because i was sick. I missed three tests.
-an midterm essay in period 1 APUSH.
-essay portion of the spanish 4 midterm.
-and a chemistry test.

I was sick today as well and i missed the last wrestling tournament.. The herricks tournament.

This coming week is midterm week... As well as Playoffs week for wrestling.

Its gonna be very stressful and physically draining.

God help me through this week.

Most Outstanding

Wrestling: a passion of an individual named Jerry Ho. Jerry Ho is a seventeen year old, whose birthday passed a week ago. Instead of going out and celebrating his birthday, Jerry spends his time in places where he is needed. That place or group is called his wrestling team.This is Jerry's third year of wrestling in the high school level.
This year, Jerry has become extremely dedicated to his team. He is the 152 pound varsity wrestler for the Glen Cove Wrestling team.
(That is the background to my current topic of discussion)

GLEN COVE TOURNAMENT

COVE CUP 2012!!! January 14, 2012

This year, Jerry was the varsity wrestler at the weight class of 152. He was allowed to weigh in at 155. There were three other varsity teams coming to this tournament. The teams included, Lawrence High School, a team we beat the Wednesday that week. The tall black kid, Jerry pinned on Wednesday with a Headlock came back and wanted revenge and a rematch against me. Valley Stream Central, and Great Neck South also came to the tournament. The Wrestling teams began coming in at 730am. The weigh ins were from 8-9 am. Wrestling began around 10.

The Tournament was round robin style, that means each weight class wrestles everyone in their weight class that day. It would go three rounds of varsity and two rounds of Junior Varsity, but thats not important :). 

Round 1: FIGHT!! A regular match consists of 3 periods, 2 minutes each.

I versed a scrub from great neck south. I pinned him first period with a reverse headlock. I made the kid squeal a little bit. 

Record at around 10:45 am that day, was 1-0, 

Round 2: FIGHT!!

This was against the tall black kid from Lawrence High School that wanted revenge. This match was the toughest match ever! He was so angry after i beat him the first time. This time, i couldnt catch him in a head lock, he used his greco roman style wrestling and kept tossing me over his shoulder. He was beating me by a lot of points.. the score was about 12-5, him. we kept wrestling, and i got a take down, and the score became 12-7. I was still losing. by the last period, the score was 12-8, i was still loosing by a lot of points. with 40 seconds left on the clock, i use a turk,and almost pinned the kid, i received 5 points, the final score came out to be 13-12, ME! Sorry to mention, second period, i had a tiny bloody nose.

Record 2-0! 

Round 3: FIGHT!

By this time of day, i was pretty exhausted after sweating and resting and sweating and resting. I took a fifteen minute nap prior to this last match again Valley Stream Central. I got called, and all i had going through my head was, "damn i dont want to lose" "If i win this one, im gonna be a tournament champion" " Im going to be 3-0" "Oh My Gosh im tired" 

Then i began to block off those thoughts, it was just "Time to win this thing" it was me talking to myself in my head saying my favorite quotes "try a little harder to be a little better" by Gordon B. Hinckley. "time to ruin another persons life"

I got onto the mat, relatively tired, but well warmed up. Shook the opponents hand like a gentleman. and began to wrestle. i didnt waste anytime. i went for an arm drag, missed it. I took a double leg take down, and drove him across the mat. I went for a turk, the kid was tough enough to resist it, but opened up another opportunity to pin him. I stabbed in a cross face, and ran his head to his knee. and got a cross face cradle. I put my knee in his side, head to his temple, when he struggled, a laced my leg over the other. The kid couldnt move, and early in the first period, the ref slammed the mat and blew the whistle. (That means "PIN")

that concludes my record for the day, 3-0!! FIRST PLACE in the GLEN COVE, COVE CUP TOURNAMENT!!

So the end of the tournament: GLEN COVE WINS FIRST PLACE!!. THE Cove Cup remains in GCHS. 

Our team all receives medals. But WAIT :)

A special reward... a reward i never thought to have received. The specs of this reward include a plaque, with a gold plating in front. The contents are stated below. Along with that reward, i was interviewed on TV called MSG Varsity. It was a great day!

 

I dont regret at all giving all my passion into wrestling during this season. I know my position, i am i a 152 pounder that wrestles for my team. We wrestle together, have each other's back, attack the opponent like an army front. and We ARE IN THE PLAY OFFS!!. if we win the first round of the playoffs, we are in the top 8 teams all of long island! Excited!!